burning passion....

As i writing this blog, that old passion is burning inside me, again... that familiar passion, that desire that i thought was already gone because of time.... but i was wrong... the passion of working in a hospital as a nurse is in me again, hunting me to pursue what i had dreamed of, the work that i believe is destined for me.. Slowly, thoughts are flashing back again... random thoughts.. how? when?

Opportunity took me here, where i am now, in a company that i never thought i would be, but still thankful to God because I have this job as i wait for that time to really work as a nurse... Most of the time, i have this wishful thoughts that i could turn back time and if i could, i'd rather not take this path... i'd rather take different course instead of nursing and thinking if i did, i would have enjoying now the privilege of having a high paying job in a company or whatsoever.... but this were all wishful thoughts because the reality is I am now a NURSE... and its either i face that fact or turn my back on it... what will i choose? to go pursue that passion or try something new??

As this thoughts came, my heart still go for the one that i've been desiring of... It may take years for me to be able to fulfill this desire but i should hold on to it, i should not stop this passion and hope in me that someday i would have that perfect working place, i would have that job that i am always dreaming of... It may take it long but i am willing to wait, and i trust God for this... I trust Him that this desire is coming from Him alone and in His time it will be granted unto me... For now, i have to do what i need to do, to prepare myself for that day, to start thinking on where to apply and when will i start.. I want to start preparing as soon as possible!!! really!!!! I need to move now!!! I'm writing this to encourage myself too that i should do my move before its too late.. Praying that i can start it sooon.. Please do help me God... :)))

being compared...

I hate it when people make comparisons.. comparisons are simply natural to us and I myself do compare... but it hurts when I was the one whose bein' compared to.. Especially kapag wala kang laban sa taong pinacocomparan sayo and they keep on repeating dat c gni2 ganyan ganyan.. haay!!!! and so?? i dont care! Can you just accept me for me?? If you cant, its ok but pls can do me a favor?? will you stop comparing!!?? haayy!!


Every person is unique and I have qualities of my own and I love the way I am... And I know, God loves me for who I am and that's the most important thing.. I just wish that in a split of a second, everything will be all right and I won't have a bad feeling to anyone and even to myself... Its so hard to Live on the expectations of others, kaya nga I was so glad nung nwala nko sa stage na gnun and now?? parang unti-unti nararamdaman ko na naman iyon and I know I don't have to do what pleases them, this is my LIFE.. no one can ever rule my life except for the one who created me, and that's God...

At the end of every day, I'm still thankful because He is the one who comforts me all the way and that truth is more than enough that anything else..;))